Drive to Ottawa today for Winterlude with my lovely daughters and my older daughter's best friend. Kids amazing in the car overall, sweet relief. Hard to stay awake, a single coffee normally sparks me the hell up, but today even one large one not enough. I have been up since very early on a crazed schedule to be able to get out of town by noon. I made it.
I talk with myself again and again about reframing my old storylines. I notice that when I get tired I feel lonely, and it really is an automatic switch that needs to be broken. It's just not true. My older daughter is singing Wizard of Oz tunes, my younger daughter is teaching me about what she is learning in her meditation class, we bubble over with love for each other. We will meet my Dad and his partner in Ottawa, we will be a family. I am not alone.
I notice my desire to drive far. To keep going down mysterious wide open new roads. I honour the road I am on at this time in my life as well as the countless possibilities that lie ahead. I am at once apprehensive and ecstatic. Must stay with the ecstasy.
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I like reframing...sounds a lot like refraining, but that doesn't work for me...reframing has so many paths...I think one of the most helpful paths is maybe looking at the helpful things that some of my "negative" patterns bring....even looking at negative patterns as being there for a good reason seems like a reframing..
reframing into zzzzzzzzzs...
So nice to have an extra day this weekend.
I spent the weekend with my parents. My mom forgets everything, so she tells me the same thing about 6 times. My dad keeps telling me the same stories from long ago. It takes a lot of patience. Still, somehow
it's nice to be there. It's quieter. No internet.
Your mind clears. When you come back, it's different.
..hey Marilyn...do you mean, it goes back to being the same it was when you come back, or that upon returning you retain some of the peace of being away or something else?
I definitely retain some of the peace that I felt there, and bring it back home. I walk in refreshed here, and don't feel stressed about things I have to get done.
At least not for a few days.
Also, they live in a small town. There's really nothing to do, and it's peaceful when you go for a walk. You don't have a hundred cars coming at you.
It's also nice visiting people and not just talking on the phone. People get caught up in email and phone, but real life is so much better.
sounds peaceful to be able to bring back some of that peace back....I think "winding down" is an amazing thing....so going from the big city to a town, from a town to a cottage, and on and on...I wonder if we get used to things and ultimately need a break from whatever pace we choose to live our lives?
thanks for writing..
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